Ceyella Melp

[ceyella]

Hello,

As I write this I want to ensure it does not come across like I am flaming out, or creating drama for the admins. I hope it does not come across that way.

I have left all the CD discords, and do not intend to actively play the server, at least until January when ATAE resumes. After that, we'll see.

It has become increasing apparent to me I an unwelcome and unwanted on the server. I am tired of constantly being rejected, excluded, looked down on, and talked about behind my back.

I do apologize - I know part of it is my fault, and how I react to RP. I know to a lot of people it looks unstable & delusional, and I recognize my friends have drifted away from me because of a particular situation.

I didn't mean to hurt so many people, so I apologize. I feel like my actions towards my friends has become increasingly self-centered and exhausting. I can understand why they would not want to interact with me. I feel horrible for those I made uncomfortable and drove away.

I will not be taking discord friend request, or responding to forum PMs about this. As, I am sure certain staff will gleefully try to twist this as me seeking attention, and manipulate me posting this in a manner in which to highlight me as being unstable or something.